Why cant I just....?!

My botanic best friends --> Mr.Jack called me up just now and brought me for a lunch and at the same time, he introduced his new girlfriend AGAIN after introducing his ex-gf at the previous time I came back for a one week Hari Raya break(Just imagine how soon he can get a new girlfriend..).. Wow... Another year 1990 borned little chicks... Naive enough to be cheated by my professional girl tackling friend... =) Not to say cheated la but then he seems to change girlfriend every 3 months and yet he still dare to tell me that this is his last one ( although this is not the first time he telling me so...).. But then think deeply about him, sometimes can say is quite jealous about him... Outlook not too attractive, academically average, but got lots of money, driving Toyota Vios at the age of 18 ( Dad sponsored)... This is how, the girls are attracted to him... Maybe only naive girls or majority of the girls in this society nowdays are like that?? Very weird..We are normal human beings but he can do something that I cant do it... When I mention about this to him, he will say it's not that I cant, but it just that I don't want... Do you all think what he said is true? No idea.. Not too agree about what he is saying... It's not that I don't want, maybe phobia... Or perhaps other reasons.. Or excuses..
So what is the conclusion? No conclusion... Emo-ing? Nope.. Maybe just too boring... Makes me think all these nonsense.. But then still don't understand why I give people around the feeling that I like to play with relationship stuffs.. Am I a playboy? Nope.. I dont think so and dont even have the criteria or the advantages to do so... I just simply dont want to be tied down at such an early age... Freedom is more important to me now... Or maybe it is because influenced by mummy.. Ahhaaa... Trying to push the responsibility to mom..
But then, I can bluff everyone in this world, but not myself... I am slowly... day by day.. step by step... Being tied down by someone or the other part of me... Is this what I want? Or not my choice to choose whether I want or I dont want because it is out of mine control?! Confused!! Love stuffs... Ahhaaa... Talk easy, do hard... Just follow the fate... Think like that, I will feel more comfortable.. =D
What is all these craps??? I also do not know... Dont want to know... Perhaps, just simply thinking of nonsense... Many things in this world are not logic and cant solve by logical thinking or actions because there is another important element exist in human nature when the god created us, that's called "FEELING!!"...
Adios~